First of all, HAPPY NEW YEAR! Another year had passed..One heck of a year! Pfsh! A LOT happened, good..bad..a mix of both..But it was fun and I'll miss 2008.
It's exactly 11:00 pm right now. I'm here in my bedroom sitting on the bed with my laptop on my lap. TV's on with MTV. And I have been sitting here all day long from the moment I woke up. My cousins & the husband of one of them from US were here since January 1st. They've been out with Tita & Tito Jun since yesterday. I haven't been coming with them because I always woke up late and well, true reason is that I don't wanna come with them coz I always feel "out-of-place" coz I'm really not that close to my cousins and we don't talk that much. Not that we hate each other but... it's just like that.. I'm just antisocial. Well it's me! I only talk to them if they're the first one to talk to me. I don't know. I don't understand myself. Sigh. I'm pathetic. Hmff.
Changing the topic, there is this guy he's been my blockmate and has been a good friend of mine and just late last year he confessed to me that he loves me and he was asking me if he can court me. And well, I said yeah. But I never told him that I love him because I'm not sure about my feelings yet. And my parents and my aunt and uncle don't like him. On the other hand, his mom doesn't want him to date girls which don't have the same religion as them. We have different religion. These stuffs are just blocking my mind from choosing what's best. I like him already. But I don't know if I should say yes to him. It's too complicated. The worst/best/i can't think of a best description for it part is that it's both our 1st time to fall in love. Isn't it lovely? =)). But again it's so complicated. Pfft. It's so hard to fall in love nowadays especially now that I'm getting old. I'm 20 already next year and I haven't had any boyfriends in my entire life yet.
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